JIE. Chapter 1. Beginning Of The Journey

JOURNEY INTO ETERNITY

Chapter 1

BEGINNING OF THE JOURNEY

My whole life, since my childhood, I’ve been this eternal searcher for the Truth, deeply hidden in universal mysteries of our life and its undiscovered secrets, known by our everlasting Selves through our whole path of existence. Hence there has always been a great interest not only in religion and spirituality, but also in psychology as a study of our human personalities and our uniqueness in this world, and on the other hand — a study of our Higher Self personalities, forged and shaped through numerous facets, through countless manifestations of Everything though us, the evidence of which can be traced through different sources of knowledge: in cosmology, astrophysics, esotericism, philosophical teachings, different theories of evolution in intergalactic volume and our place in it, eternal questions of the purpose and great sense of life, through an insight out of frames in perspective of great diversity of the worlds we live in and create ourselves, of our unique divine spirits and our eternal union in one great mission, called Life.   
But, obviously, my enduring thirst for Higher Knowledge brought me to the first obvious source — religion. But at that time it was only the first step of my life-long discovering journey.   
I was named "Christian" by the surrounding of place where I was born... But by choice and inner calling of my Soul I am a "Universal" Believer. I believe that God resides in our Souls, just like Jesus was teaching us. And alike teachings are traced through all religions of the world, that were given to people and nations through other prophets and teachings. But all of them always spoke about the same things. And this Truth I found to be a true beauty and majesty of God.   
I've come a long path of searches and transformations. This journey started when I was 6-7 years old. Yes, I started from Christianity. But it was exactly dogmata and norms described there, full of contradictions, that made me look further and read deeper into all the teachings and revelations. And see the true messages behind the words. Just like in all other religions.   
I have always been reaching for God and all undiscovered mysteries and beauties of the world that were given for us to aspire for, to be reaching closer and closer. And yet never to discover them fully. But the more I was looking deeper into my Soul, having it like an inner compass in search of the Truths of the world, the closer I was getting to God and Its blessings...
All my life, since childhood, I have always been asking these Big 
Questions. But not in a way for some idle satisfaction of my tangential interest. I don’t know why, but it seems to be hard to understand by people in my surrounding. But this Search which is rather a Path to My True Self has always been my essential existential need – to come back Home, to walk beside and towards God. But I was never a believer in God in conventional way. Or let’s say not in one specific way. Because after studying a great number of main religions of the world and great philosophies and teachings I somehow managed to draw the image of the Essence of God that I have always known deep in my Soul. This image is composed of all of the images, prophecies of numerous religions and beliefs, philosophical teachings and scientific evidences, – the image of an eternal incarnation of God in everything we know, given for US to teach us from this Everything.   
I already know God... :) We all DO. And in childhood we still remember It (not him, not her, – It – ‘Omni-existence’) but with time, of course, we forget by entering these religious and social systems that the human world presents to us. But the Knowledge within us always stays – it feeds us, it constitutes us – Knowledge about Ourselves. Maybe this is why this natural urge to reunite with my true nature has always been so important to me. So after entering this stage of adulthood and growing within a given social and national background, I started to research. But only one direction, determined only by my place of birth (being born in Christian country) was never satisfying this calling of my Soul.   
So, I decided to grasp as more as possible from as wider perspectives as possible. I've studied Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, Sikhism, Daoism, Baha’i Faith, have read the Bible, the Gospel, the Quran, a number of Hindu holy texts, philosophical books and evolutionary theories.   
I also have been analyzing different scientific theories and facts that only prove my Inner Knowledge and those some of revelations in holy books that survived till our times without a distortion (or let’s say, the revelations which were saying basically the same things that we witness now in science, but which were told to people of those times in apprehendable language for them). I was speaking to scientists who even without a belief in spirituality were giving me beautiful evidences of the Higher Essence of our existence. We are given with so much beautiful and diverse sources to explore. So, I think, it is important to both read and look deeper between the lines in every existential source together with letting it all through our inner compass of our Soul – to help It guide us towards the beautiful Truth. Towards God and our True Selves.   
So, I started looking into those sources and after learning the teachings of a number of holy books, I started my pilgrimage around the world, where I had an opportunity not only to learn it theoretically but feel the spirit of these religions in practice and the unity with people from all of the world.   
And throughout my spiritual journey, I managed to draw the common Essence of God that is composed of all the images, prophecies and philosophical teachings and scientific theories. But what is the most incredible is that there has always been something… that I have lived with and known inside of me - this inner Knowledge - an image of eternal incarnation of God in everything we know, and its eternal reincarnation within Everything.   
But of course being a child I couldn’t even shape this idea, especially being born a Christian and raised in a surrounding of atheists. And the "atheists" doesn’t mean only God atheists, but atheist of anything unknown, inconvenient and extraordinary that comes out of frames or expands the abilities of apprehension.   
As well as by bathing in the "seas" of religious dogmata I could not accept their sacramental assurance that they were the only "water" sources of the truth. Each one “is the only one” according to their claims. And they seemed to neglect and reject the existence of global ocean and the universal essence of "water" itself. Being born and bathing for years in one little sea, called Orthodox religion, I felt tied up and deprived from swimming in the great waters. That’s why I started to widen my list of sources and made an acquaintance with different religions and teachings, as well as science - in search for different kinds of proofs in physics, astrophysics, biology, geography, history, quantum mechanics and string theory and other studies that crack one's conventional views about the icebergs on the surface and encourage us to look into the depths of the oceans.   
But even despite of this, usually each of flow (religious or any other one) tends to extract their own “truth” and set the sail into one direction voyage sailing with the flags called "The Only Truth", which is given or seen by “them and only by them”. While there are so many ships and boats, carrying the same flags, the same sacred “t”ruths. But only by combining them and uniting them in the face of common horizons, we can at least approach the common ocean of the Big “T”ruth.