JIE. Chapter 3. Re-Membering

JOURNEY INTO ETERNITY

Chapter 3

RE-MEMBERING   

Another reason that triggered my interest and studies in this direction was my old question since young years – a question of so called “sins of the fathers”. This notion is met in almost every religion and this is the notion which I could never understand and accept. Because how come?! How fair can it be? Where is justice here? When the innocent child for example, his innocent soul, suffers and pays for his “father’s sins”, grandfather’s, great great greeeeeeat grandfather’s and so on? Kin sins. Or Ancestral sins. This notion is very popular as in religious stories as in esoteric teachings. But since I have always been a fighter for justice and freedom to be ourselves and believed in judgement only for our own choices and actions, since it's our own sins and benefactors, our own responsibility of our personal souls, I could never accept this injustice towards innocent souls. In Jewish and Christian communities, I often heard the idea that these calamities that an innocent person endures is some kind of punishment for sins of "fathers or grandfathers". In Islam it is believed that all these calamities are sent to an innocent person as a trial for their soul. Yes, it sounds a bit better. That God doesn’t want to punish innocent souls for the sins they didn't commit, but to try them and make them stronger in calamities and diseases. But still. It didn’t make much sense for me, as still there must have been some connection to why exactly this or that turn of events was happening to certain people. Because different people experience different calamities and events in their lives, that give them this or that lesson – the lesson which was the most important and needed exactly for them to learnt, to grow, to evolve. A lesson which sometimes (always) extends one lifetime.
And my own experience of seeing the path of my soul through lifetimes in my incarnational dreams and analyzing the lessons from them has led me towards another notion on the way to answering my eternal question – the constitution of our Soul. Thus I came to reincarnation and karma beliefs. And especially after a near death experience, after being almost THERE… I saw… – No. I FELT something so close and genuine!... But HOW to explain on earthly level something, which is of heavenly nature?...   
…I saw our Soul as a Crystal Sphere of 1000000~…… of inner spheres inside, gravitating towards each other or like a polyhedral Crystal with many sides in eternal move transcending one into another… But to imagine that you can't actually look at it in 3-dimensional projection, no. It is something definitely 4-, 10-, 20-, 100-D experience!.... Something that is hard to depict in this material world, because it doesn't belong to it. It lies exactly in the spiritual realm, where our True Selves dwell. But for some reason, I was granted this blessing to have a short look at this miracle of creation. And even if I cannot apprehend its shape and concept fully with my human brain, I was given the ways to understand it to the extend that was needed at that time. And I am eternally grateful for this experience. That day became life changing for me... Literally, by surviving an actual death and by being born anew to this world with more genuine sense of understanding it...   
I met people like myself in my life, who also see metaphysical things, visions and dreams. And one of my seeing friends told me something alike before. But. The trick was that, firstly, she was using different images to describe it and, secondly, I couldn't possibly apprehend that, because I hadn’t apprehended it on a Soul level then.   
But when I saw it myself, when I truly felt it with my Soul, it became an experience of my own. The only true way to experience spirituality – through personal path of enlightenment. I genuinely wish everyone at least once in life to reach this state of being. When you finally feel whole again... When you ReMember Who You Are.
It doesn't matter, with the help of which imagery system people see it. Because everybody use their own images to illustrate and transmit the essence of what they have witnessed: some people see it, some hear it, some receive the information with the help of other different receptors of feeling and perception. So that’s why in all my speeches I just use the word “FEEL” just to generalize the way of perception of the Essence. And even by “feeling”, by perceiving the same Essence, different people would still use different images to explain themselves. It's normal. Just like they do when they try to imagine such immeasurable, immense and unimaginable Essence, like God (or Supreme   
Ultimate Energy) or  Eternity.  So my image of a “Crystal Sphere of 1000000~…… of inner spheres inside, gravitating towards each other” (let’s call it here shortly “Crystal”) is only an image, only one way to describe it, for us to imagine it easier. You can imagine it as a chain of molecules which in their turn consist of atoms and the way they are all combined in a single whole. So the same way our Supreme Soul consists of many many-many different atoms of One molecule or many-many-many sides of One whole Crystal, which is our True Supreme Soul (on the highest level of spiritual holiness), which is the purest and the lightest substance ever, so geniusly created by God as a part of his Holy Spirit, as Union with Its Essence and Love.   
This is how I feel it and have always felt since my birth. But only now after so many years of my researches and studies I approached to the closest expression of this truth, that has always lived in me – a reincarnation theory, which is a part of such religions, like Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism, Sikhism, ancient cultures with Greek historic figures, such as Pythagoras, Socrates and Plato who had a belief in rebirth/metempsychosis, and modern religious and scientific movements, like Spiritism, Theosophy, Eckankar etc.