Preface Hell and Paradise

Dear readers,
I want to present my new book Hell and Paradise. I don' t want to explain why Hell and why Paradise--because all context the book explains. But if  shortly said: inspiration for this  book was my life in United State of America, mostly in New York the years 1995-1999. Even why the cover for this book: Twin Towers the highest buildings in New York in that time. When I see these Two I feel happiness and new building on the same place after 9/11 not evoke It. I don' t know may be it just my feeling, but all the book about my  perception of reality.
 The book begin from happenstance--casual acquaintance with American musician. Steve was not so famous, but he was amazing  beautiful personality and everything was wonderful in him, if remind Anton Chekhov: " ...  and face and manners  and clothes and thoughts and feelings.
And plus he was divine talented. He was music itself. He  was magnetically attractive.
It was not possible not to fall in love with this irresistible man.
How Shakespeare wrote: ".. if love could eat, she would eat music..."
 But then Charlotta met with  another
interesting man- James Bond.
How Michel Foucault wrote:
"Power is worthy of love, and when it has a positive effect, progress brings knowledge and pleasure."
It was happiness-- to contemplate such       compelling understanding generous enough  in all his the best kindly exertions and plus it looked that he was  not cracked  nowhere.
New love gave huge motivation for spiritual growing. Love refresh life. Everything is born of love, it is influence on all sides of life.
All free time Charlotte spend in Nobel store
It was big book store  on 6 Avenue between 23 and 22 West street .  She read books of philosophy,  history, management, psychology, policy, leadership. She try found balance in her deep feelings, quenching love thirst in knowledge, that what is love--it is  need to brain. Some interesting researches she is sending to White House to help leadership.
Her first book of poems was named LightHouse and she care  that lighthouse  shining always shows right way for ships.
I think some of that materials will be useful for President to make social reforms.
And all this had an emotional tinge, the desire to be more perfect and a great desire to make everyone happy and discover the best in others--isn't it is the leadership this is so easy when it is like  in Titanic's "My heart will go on"
When we meet  he asked her to say something in Russian,
And she looked at him and said in Russian: "I lovе you".
But for him, this meeting was "Not about P.M." Why was he looking for a meeting with me? In the Soviet Union, after graduating from the University’s Faculty of Economics, I worked as an economist and I was lucky to work with talented and knowledgeable people and I made a very successful career and in 1986 I wrote and sent a restructuring plan to the Central Committee and it became a reality. The fact that subsequently the greed of some and the infantilism of others led the country to an economic catastrophe is not my fault.
All the same, I feel my merit that my virtual presence contributed to the fact that in 1997 there was a break-even budget in America.
Russia, too, was being helped at that time, but it was like pouring water into a barrel with a second hole.
And then in 1998, the scandal with Monica, discovered Clintoniad, which is growing into Putiniadu, where we live now.
Power has become reduced to control, censorship of intimidation, it is like a spider and not like the magical spirit of freedom permeates all aspects of life.
The perfidious intrusion into my privacy has begun, brainwashing invading my physical body.
The performers of this performance also could not stand it and Snowden ran away from the country, making some revelations. Human rights? - I tried to write in different instances rather, everything is useless. Here and there it is so programmed in everything.
Throughout Putiniada you would not call it otherwise. But Putiniada began even before Putin was born. Here in the USA when half of the country died of AIDS and all journalists, politicians, artists, government officials, senators, congressmen, doctors knew about it, everyone was silent. Finally, Elizabeth Taylor  publicly stated whats happening. And after this revelation of this courageous, possibly the most feminine, woman in the world, they began to help sick people and solve this problem.
There is a lot of poetry in my history, and if you asked only the artistic old side, you could create a beautiful illusion, inspire a golden dream, but that was not my goal.
I am agree with Dostoyevsky's observation: "it is better to be unhappy and know the worst, than to be happy in a fool's paradise."
  But it is really not so easy to follow this advice when one is watching a loved one
repeatedly relive the pain of loss brought about by well meaning "truth-tellers."
There is no dignity in living  a life of the constant emotional pain. But sadistic people created this atmosphere--  humiliation and sadism have much  less dignity then to whom they are tortured.
The problem is not only that they have no soul,they have arrogance, pretentiousness, but no dignity. They have no self-respect if they have not sunk to such lows.
Intimidation they try to create the appearance of self-respect.
All their control is reduced to control and intimidation.
And in many ways I wrote this book following observation'  Michelle Fuco
“..The real political task is to ensure that the political violence that is carried out behind the scenes in them is exposed, so that people can fight against them."
We have to know where  we live.
It is very popular talking about fascism and Stalinism which was 60-70 years ago, but it is hard to see and write about that it is going now here in country in city where in the Centre building UN and Statue of Liberty .
  It is very difficult to talk about the manifestations of terrible sadism, experiments on living people, a gross violation of human rights and you live among people in the center of the world and nobody cares about you and your rights.
And again paraphrasing Foucault:
I'm talking about the ability to create, about the technical difficulty of writing this book.
And not only because English is not your first language, what is happening does not fit into the usual framework, so I chose English and as a child, faced with a new environment for it, I learned how to describe it, respond to it as it should, learn to speak and think about it is completely for itself in a new way. I think that such actions can be defined as creative.
 You can be technically  perfect but not ability to tell story.
I try to be  honest how it was be
I try to be not hardly about it with myself
The mostly hardly was found definition for everything what it was   in that tragic and sad time and then shallow time.
And then what  I was- It was I want to say and what I said.

I took risk  share yourself for whom- who
like  human been  interesting about where are we live
And through  victim and Hirt you agree that
If we understand democracy, we will not be divided into classes, not ordered hierarchically  then it absolutely clear that we are extremely far from it, It is also quite clear that we live under a regime of class dictatorship, a class power that is imposed through violence.
I wrote this book to healing myself because  when you found understanding you found mercy  and probably it founding people who want change the world for better. And get rid of illusion it is healing yourself too.
But love is not illusion or it illusion that help us to survive make us better appreciate past enjoy present and capital for future.