It s Nice To Have It The First Time Around

It's nice to have it the first time around, isn't it?


Ok, not even that, I'll start it all over again (a correction): 


It's nice to have been had the first time around, isn't it? 


um.. Whoopsies... 


Take three, I mean "have been had" as in "build a connection". 


And I have talked to a wise woman about it, she was helpful & looked at my chart, 


And (unsurprisingly) guess what  her conclusion was:


"Oh, silly, stop playing smart, I can see what you are.



Cause ...For you to get any traction will always be hard.  


You have to be thrilled with being subpar, always draining yourself to get not that far, BUT HEY, if you do... 


then,  you'll become option 'last'. Grab that chance, do it,  before it has passed. "


And what if I drain myself. What if I "do it".. Do "grab it", ..and there: a surprising way to never have love, isn't?


So seemingly unrelated... 


A heart to pieces hidden in plain sight is just the seasoning. 


The main course would stale "so disgusting, I hate it"..