Часть 13. A Dream that Will Not Die

 НИКТО НИЧЕГО НЕ СПРОСИЛ...


Здравствуйте!

24 января текущего 2026 года я опубликовал здесь один совершенно

ПОТРЯСАЮЩИЙ рассказ об одном — вернее —

О ДВУХ СОВЕРШЕННО ПОТРЯСАЮЩИХ ЛЮДЯХ -

- СООТЕЧЕСТВЕННИКАХ НАШИХ -

- КОТОРЫМИ МЫ ВСЕ МОЖЕМ ГОРДИТЬСЯ -

- НАСЛЕДИЕ КОТОРЫХ ДОЛЖНЫ ИЗУЧАТЬ

ВО ВСЕХ ПЕДАГОГИЧЕСКИХ ВУЗах России -

ПРИМЕР КОТОРЫХ ДОЛЖЕН ВДОХНОВЛЯТЬ

ЛЮДЕЙ ПО ВСЕМУ МИРУ…


Эти Два Человека Чудесных —
 ОТЕЦ НИКОЛАЙ — Православный священник —
и супруга его МАТУШКА ГАЛИНА…


Я специально не назвал их фамилию…

Мне было интересно — кто-нибудь заинтересуется? Спросит?

Увы — нет — никто не спросил —
хотя поначалу — в первые две недели после публикации —
МНОГО ЛЮДЕЙ ЧИТАЛИ это повествование краткое…


Отец Николай и Матушка Галина

УСЫНОВИЛИ — УДОЧЕРИЛИ -

- БОЛЕЕ ВОСЬМИДЕСЯТИ ДЕТЕЙ!

И это было не только количество -

- это было КАЧЕСТВО ЧУВСТВА!

ТО БЫЛА ИСТИННАЯ СЕМЬЯ ХРИСТОВА -

- СПАЯННАЯ ИДЕАЛАМИ ВЕЧНОЙ ХРИСТОВОЙ ЛЮБВИ…

Все дети с любовью называли их —

отца Николая и матушку Галину —

ПАПА И МАМА —

а друг друга — СРАЗУ И НА ВСЮ ЖИЗНЬ -

- ПРИНИМАЛИ КАК БРАТЬЯ И СЕСТРЫ РОДНЫЕ…


Более того -

Отец Николай построил там — в глухомани оренбургской -

- ЦЕЛЫЙ ПРАВОСЛАВНЫЙ ГОРОД

- С НУЛЯ — В ГОЛОЙ СТЕПИ -

ОГРОМНЫЙ ЧУДЕСНЫЙ ХРАМ -

ГИМНАЗИЯ ПРАВОСЛАВНАЯ ПО ЧЕРТЕЖАМ ВАСНЕЦОВА

ДОМ МИЛОСЕРДИЯ ДЛЯ ПРЕСТАРЕЛЫХ

ИКОНОПИСНАЯ И ИНЫЕ МАСТЕРСКИЕ

ВСЕ ХОЗЯЙСТВЕННЫЕ ПОСТРОЙКИ -

и так далее — и так далее…


ЧУДЕСНЫЕ ПЕДАГОГИ УЧИЛИ ДЕТЕЙ В ГИМНАЗИИ

ДЕТИ ЕЗДИЛИ С КОНЦЕРТАМ ПО ВСЕЙ ЕВРОПЕ И ПО АМЕРИКЕ

КАЖДОЕ ЛЕТО ОТДЫХАЛИ НА МОРЕ

У НИХ БЫЛИ ЖИВОТНЫЕ — ЛОШАДИ — ОСЛИКИ —
КОЗЫ — СОБАКИ — КРОЛИКИ …

И это дети — СИРОТЫ —
у многих родители оказались ЗА РЕШЕТКОЙ -

И БАТЮШКА С МАТУШКОЙ
НЕ ПОБОЯЛИСЬ «ПЛОХОЙ НАСЛЕДСТВЕННОСТИ» -

- ПРИНЯЛИ ИХ КАК РОДНЫХ…

БОЛЕЕ ВОСЬМИДЕСЯТИ ДЕТЕЙ...


Это — явление НЕВИДАННОЕ НИГДЕ В РОССИИ И МИРЕ…

УЧЕНЫЕ ДОЛЖНЫ ИЗУЧАТЬ ЭТОТ ОПЫТ -

- ВОСКРЕСЕНИЕ СИРОТ ОТ ЗАПЛУТАВШИХ РОДИТЕЛЕЙ…

Это — то, что

КАК ВОЗДУХ НУЖНО РОССИИ -

- ЕСЛИ МЫ ХОТИМ ВОЗРОДИТЬСЯ…


Далее — с БАТЮШКОЙ СЛУЧИЛАСЬ БЕДА…

Я написал и это — лишь не сказал — КАКАЯ?


НИКТО — НИЧЕГО — НЕ СПРОСИЛ…

НИ ФАМИЛИЮ — НИ ЧТО ЗА БЕДА…


ЧТО  ЭТО???

ГРОМ И МОЛНИЯ — ЧТО???

Это ли — Первые Христиане —
о Святом Идеале которых
я пишу здесь вот уже три месяца?

- НЕТ! КАК БЫ НЕ ТАК!

ПЕРВЫЕ ХРИСТИАНЕ — СПРОСИЛИ БЫ!

ПЕРВЫЕ ХРИСТИАНЕ — они были ЧЕЛОВЕЧНЫ…


Они бы спросили фамилию —
и спросили бы — что за беда…

PS

А Элечка? Элечка возлюбленная…

Элина Сергеевна — врач-неонатолог из Калининграда…

Это тоже — СВЯТАЯ ГОРДОСТЬ РОССИИ…

ВСЮ ЖИЗНЬ СВОЮ ПОСВЯТИЛА

СПАСЕНИЮ ДЕТЕЙ НЕДОНОШЕННЫХ…

Такая Женщина!..
Это Золото —
Золото с сияющим Розовым Кварцем в сердце —
 или Рубином —
камнями драгоценными Божьей Священной Любви…

БОЛЬШУЮ НОВЕЛЛУ И ЕЙ ПОСВЯТИЛ — месяц назад…

И с нею случилась БЕДА…

Опять же — никто ничего не спросил…


Лерочка… Милая Лерочка…

Чудесная Милая Девушка -

- талантливый театральный педагог,
зоозащитница фанатично преданная…

Я опубликовал здесь стихи -

- совершенно потрясающие трогательные стихи Лерочки,
которые она написала в СИЗО —
на тетрадном листочке в клеточку —
и прислала их мне тогда —
пять лет назад вот уже…

И с тех пор — наша связь прервалась…

Камни бы —
КАМНИ БЫ ПРОСЛЕЗИЛИСЬ —
закапала бы роса с них святая…


Сотни людей прочитали...

Никто ничего не спросил…



Игорь Катанугин (Березкин)


 «ТИТАНИК» КАК ОТЗВУК АТЛАНТИДЫ
         
 (открытое письмо-размышление, если хотите – книга небольшая по сути – с двумя рисунками авторскими и приложением на английском языке)


Часть 13.


ВСТАВКА от 8 февраля 2026 года.

Дорогой читатель! Эти дневниковые записи — посты — были написаны мною давно — где-то в 2014 — 2017 годы… Конечно, со временем что-то меняется — в самом стиле письма, в настрое, в вибрации внутренней, в расстановке акцентов… Тем не менее, публикую эти мои старые записи здесь сейчас — практически в их старом неизменном виде — лишь изредка делая вставки небольшие… В основном содержание, внутренний настрой их остается для меня самого в силе и по сей день…

Дело же твое, друг — читатель — что читать, что — нет… Практически каждая из этих частей — по сути своей САМОСТОЯТЕЛЬНА — то есть их можно читать в любой последовательности, нумерация их — довольно-таки условна…

Пожалуй, наиболее полной - содержательной — концентрированной — является 5-ая часть сборника -  «Кен Маршалл — Титаника Больше Нет!» - хотя искренние чувства мои содержатся всюду…

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A DREAM THAT WILL NOT DIE

(A Letter to All Who Keep Fondly The Memory of The Titanic)
 


 Dear Friends! Merciful Ladies and Gentlemen!


Indeed, merely I am one of you; I dare to consider myself one of you, one of those who – using the words of the subtitle of this little humble script – keep fondly, with love, the memory of the Titanic, the legendary ship which has started her journey – her only one voyage, maiden and final at once, more than a hundred years ago – and still goes on, yes goes on this voyage even now – goes on in the hearts of so much people all over the world!

Yes, simply and merely I am one of you, and I would like to share with you some of my thoughts and feelings very dear and precious for me. Imagine we are gathered together in a cozy comfortable room, we are sitting in chairs maybe around a big round table with tea, coffee and cakes upon it and simply we have this interesting pleasant talk or conversation at this our friendly party.

So these are the words I would like to tell you at this precious wonderful occasion. Yes, it only takes place in my (and I hope – in our!) imagination but why not? Why not to imagine such a happy friendly communication?


I am Igor Katanugin, 50 years old (What a great round age! It came so suddenly to me!), from Russia (I live in region of Tver, 300 km north from Moscow), by job I am a tutor – home teacher, in other words I usually give my lessons just at the very homes of my pupils.

I hope sometime I shall have opportunity to continue our friendly communication  because being fifty years old indeed there are so many impressions, remembrances very dear for me I am eager to share with friends! Surely this is the case with every human being who tries to keep in his/her heart all precious things and memories beginning with the  childhood and oh so precious love of one’s parents on earth!
 

Yet now I would like to share with you some moments of my spiritual biography related with the legendary Titanic. I would like to express some thoughts and ideas which I think will sound, will prove new and interesting for many of you and even – I hope – will be able to bring assistance in healing some painful psychological experiences related to  the Titanic.

Yes indeed there can remain such inner wounds at hearts and souls of the people who take this tragic story close to heart! So I would like to share with you some ideas which proved themselves very good, healing for myself therefore I dare to expect they will have such healing effect upon some others’ souls also!


Please allow me to describe briefly my own personal history of how I’ve got acquainted with the topic of our common interest – the story of the Titanic. Forgive me please all my possible flaws and errors in English and imperfections of style, form, composition! Forgive me please and try to understand me because truly I tell you things very dear and precious for my own heart.


So my first touch, my first acquaintance with Titanic took place the 2-nd of January, 2004. Yes I remember well this precise date because that evening I have seen by the first time the wonderful oh so powerful, so shaking, so enthralling movie “Titanic” by James Cameron.

By that juncture we haven’t had colour TV set – only black-and-white one. I don’t know why but something – some inner voice as they say – compelled me to try to find a colour TV set because I had a feeling that I must see this film in colours! Yes dear friends – by that juncture I haven’t had the slightest idea about Titanic and that movie; nevertheless I felt that I must see that film and see it on a color TV set!


So I asked my aunt Sima permission to visit her home that evening and see this movie at her colour TV set. Dear friends! This is my first Letter to you – and I hope other will follow – therefore by necessity I must write briefly without entering details too much! So only I shall say that I had a very strong impression that evening – a very strong, very powerful impression, a very intense, enthralling experience when I forgot about my surrounding situation and I lived, I experienced THAT situation – events of the movie - as if I was there too!

Surely I could not understand then all why and how. Simply I had a feeling as if some wonderful powerful wind has entered all my life, all my heart. I felt clearly that – using words I saw once in a book – there is more to life! Yes there is MORE to Life! There is much MORE to Life than it seems in our grey everyday life, in the daily routine of our common usual thoughts and deeds and occupations!


Surely I felt the horrible tragedy of thousands of people. Nevertheless though I could not then explain it to myself something wonderful occurred with me. I had a feeling, a sense of some vague, new, unknown upliftment – yes, an upliftment, inspiration, enthusiasm at my heart – as if someone was encouraging me precisely as I have written now – that there is MORE to Life, there is a Wonderful Shining Happy Land somewhere ahead (surely I do not relate this image strictly to America or some other geographical point; this is rather a spiritual image and concept), and we can strive fearlessly for this blissful joyous future! 


It seems to me that practically that very evening I felt, I understood deep in my heart that that precious wonderful Dream of so many passengers of Titanic – a deep-rooted dream about pure innocent Happiness, about a new blank page, the Dawn of a New Day – this noble dream simply cannot die! It is immortal! And it is very contagious indeed!


Once again – forgive me please for being too short at this script!  I try to describe all briefly – briefly, shortly as if flying at the height of birds over this entire theme. By the moment I have seen this movie in its entirety fifteen times. Yes 15 times – though I do not deem it perfect! For example I would exclude from the film all sexual scenes and motives. I do not consider them of any necessity in order to reveal, to manifest, to show all themes of the movie. 


By my viewpoint the film should be merely and exclusively a monument, a tribute of our most deep, most profound respect to, love for and memory of the crew and passengers of the Titanic many of which have proven themselves true Heroes and Heroines of all times. Surely the movie IS this wonderful monument, it HAS shown with great power this theme of Remembrance, of our Love and Gratitude! This noble task is well accomplished!


Nevertheless I deem the sexual motives are not necessary in this movie, they do not follow, do not derive from the logic, from the very topic of the film, they do not look natural, do not look necessary there. Once again – I have seen this movie in its entirety FIFTEEN times, and I would like to see it over and over again! Surely it is a wonderful work of Art and I too am very grateful to its creators! So simply I allow myself to express here some of my friendly thoughts and impressions!


Well since that time I have seen some documental films about Titanic – both western (European) and our Russian films – very good, indeed very good works also – this time in strict form of documents. At last this very month – March of 2015 – I have seen the wonderful movie “Titanic. Blood and Steel” depicting the story of construction of the liner and wonderful enthralling stories of so many people related somehow to the construction of the ship (As I can understand in English a ship is represented by the pronoun SHE. Am I right?). 


Yes dear friends – truly sometimes tears were streaming down my cheeks while seeing this wonderful film! Truly, indeed – what a sweet wonderful hopes were flaming, were alive in the hearts of so much people boarding this “Ship of Dreams”!!!

Oh what a dear sweet hopes, what a passion, decisiveness, enthusiasm, what a strong drive, impetus, desire for something New, something Better, something Happy, Joyous, full of Light, sweet Dreams and Imagination! They stepped fearlessly into the Unknown!


Yes, if I would choose THREE THOUGHTS about Titanic,

THE FIRST THOUGHT would be the following.

Titanic is about ALL – if they say so in English! It is about all! What do I mean? – Just look once again at these movies – “Titanic. Blood and Steel”, “Titanic” of James Cameron, numerous documental movies reflecting the long-years quest of many researchers and scientists – truly it is about all, about practically all sides of life on this planet, all sides, all aspects of life both of a given unique person and society and humankind at large! 

For example one can use materials of Titanic to write a dissertation on the Historical Science, one can compose a work on the field of some Technical Sciences, one could write a dissertation on Literature and Fine Arts, and so on, and so on. The story of Titanic presents unique abundant materials for specialists of all branches, all fields, spheres of human knowledge and activities! Indeed there is something very close, very dear for any and every heart there!

And surely the wonderful image of this legendary ship is very attractive for painters, masters of marine as for example our famous Russian painter Aivazovski (I haven’t Internet at my hand now so forgive me please I don’t give his full name and dates of his lifetime – but I love his paintings very much!

Yes dear friends, sometimes a rather funny curious things happen! For example I discover suddenly that some works of painting, literature or music are very dear for me, I feel I love them but I delay with finding out the accurate precise information!)!


So despite all the tragedy of the shipwreck, there is a true Mystery surrounding the image of this legendary ship. It is no strange that it is so attractive for the eyes of a painter! It occurs sometimes that our hearts become suddenly sweetly allured, attracted by something while we couldn’t even tell just what do we attribute this attraction to! And surely it is Beauty!

Yes there are now huge cruise liners even bigger that Titanic but really we couldn’t call them ships. They are simply huge hotels put on a floating platform! They are not so fast, so dynamic, they are not so streamlined, they are not so free as birds in the sky, as dolphins at seas, as Titanic at the vastness of the Ocean!


So I confess I was and am amazed, shaken by the wonderful Art of the painters of Titanic, and I mean Ken Marschall first and foremost! They are enamoured of the beauty of Titanic themselves and they show, reveal it for us! Beauty of the ship, of the Ocean, of a sunset and sunrise over waters, beauty of movement, of a free joyous movement like dolphins, like birds in the sky!


THE SECOND THOUGHT

The Second Thought I would like to emphasize is reflected precisely by the very title of this script – A Dream that will not die! 

The thing is that Titanic practically has become for thousands of her passengers – and even the crew - a symbol of their most beautiful, most precious and dear Dreams, Hopes and expectations!

A wonderful beautiful ship leading to a New Land of Peaceful Happy Life! Indeed it is a very beautiful, very profound spiritual symbol which is still alive deep in the hearts of so many people both on earth and in heavens! Yes, and in Heavens too!


Well dear friends, I think there is a dividing of the Way here! Do we really believe in the eternal immortal Spirit invested in every human being? Do we really believe we humans are spiritual beings living temporarily in these our bodies made from flash and blood?

Do we really believe that there is a Merciful All-powerful God who surely will wipe away the tears of any woe, any earthly sorrow? Do we really believe in a wonderful Promised Land – a New Happy Land of Love, Peace, Harmony and Abundance for all? 

– And if the answer is “Yes”, if we honestly try to climb in our consciousness up toward these shining heights, mountains of Faith, if so – Titanic is truly ALIVE deep in our hearts, and all these beautiful Hopes and Dreams are still ALIVE, and ever shall be!

We still keep this wonderful oh so precious, so dear, so sweet, alluring flame of Hope and Unconditional Optimism which was alive in the hearts even of the most poor passengers of the Titanic!


Once I have seen tears on  the eyes of Ken Marschall, wonderful devoted painter of the Titanic. I mean an episode of the film “Ghosts of the Abyss” (if I remember right) where Ken remember almost with tears in his eyes that when he saw the terrible ruins of the ship lying on the bottom of the Ocean, he said: “My dear ship is no more! There is no Titanic already!”

By the way I would like to use this possibility to express my most profound gratitude, delight and admiration in respect to your truly wonderful brilliant Art, dear Ken Marschall! 


I confess I only begin to get acquainted with your paintings of Titanic, I still didn’t see them all because once again there is this pitiful delay in my life! Nevertheless obviously they are truly, surely great!  

So if we return back to this episode of the film, I would say:

Dear Ken! There are many glorious heroes of the Ancient Rome and Greece and other civilizations which have gone, reduced to rubble thousands of years ago. 

Nevertheless surely they are still alive, they live in our hearts, they inspire us, they elevate, uplift our courage, our decisiveness to go on, to live our lives as honest courageous merciful men and women!

And surely this is the case with the wonderful heroes of the Titanic and even mere poor passengers thereof longing for a simple human Happiness in a hospitable New Land!!!

To be quite frank, there is even MORE for me in this pondering.

The thing is that I believe in the reality of re-incarnation, or re-embodiment of human beings, or human souls if you like. In other words I believe we return to this our earth over and over again, so every human being has many embodiments, many lifetimes here on earth. Between these lifetimes we simply relax, we rest, we heal our psychological wounds and ponder about lessons of our earthly lives. 

It takes place in some other areas of different spiritual vibrations called Heavens in many religions and spiritual teachings. (“My Father’s Home has many Mansions,”-as Jesus Christ has said in the Gospel.)

And then we simply enter a new human body to go on our journey on earth, to learn some new lessons, to develop, to continue our spiritual growth, to pay our debts here on earth! What a wonderful merciful possibility this is!

Maybe you, dear Ken, were embodied as one of the creators or officials (or maybe passengers?) of the Titanic, and now you honestly pay your tribute to the memory of your former colleagues and friends drawing your wonderful paintings of the Titanic! Really – who does it know?!


Dear friends, I thank you very much for your friendly kind-hearted attention for these humble lines of mine!

THE THIRD THOUGHT

This script very dear for me comes close to its end, to its conclusion but I would like to reveal before you my THIRD THOUGHT before saying “Good-by!” and this is the following. For me Titanic – among many other things, meanings and senses – is an ECHO OF THE ANCIENT ATLANTIS!

Yes, I dare to attach to this email two pictures of mine which I have drawn more than ten years ago depicting the Ancient Atlantis. These pictures or paintings are based on the wonderful book, an enthralling novel by Phylos named “A Dweller on Two Planets” published first in the USA at the last years of the nineteenth century. Also I attach to this Letter my seven-pages long “Description of Pictures Atlantis” which really is more than simply description. 


Likewise here in this very text, I try to reveal there some of my thoughts and feelings very dear for me. In other words the “Description of Pictures Atlantis” is also a part of my spiritual biography I would like to share with you, dear Friends, as part of our friendly communication – which surely is supposed to be a two-ways movement, or even many-ways movement! I mean there is so much to discuss, to communicate to each other, so much to share with!


So please look these my humble simple pictures, read my Description of them! Maybe you will desire to read this magnificent book “A Dweller on Two Planets” by Phylos so we shall have even more common materials to speak about!

Here and now I would simply like to say once more that for me the entire history of the Titanic looks just like a perfect copy or echo – though surely lessened in its scale, in its dimensions – of the long passed history of the Ancient Atlantis told so alive, so eloquently in this wonderful book of Phylos which I confess I perceive as a historical narration – not as a fantastic one!

Yes, my dears! This is a very simple thought or idea, very simple and very short to express – Titanic is an echo of the Atlantis! Someone has said wisely that the simplest thoughts have the most important and wide-spreading consequences and ramifications. For me it is perfectly true!


Please read my Description of the Pictures and look – oh just look, look both with your outer and inner sight – look just how we can see in all history of the Titanic an echo, a replica of the Ancient Atlantis - continent which has sunk many thousands years ago at the very place of the wreck of Titanic (approximately at the same location, in the middle of what we call now the Atlantic Ocean)!  

Just look – the same Beauty, the same wonder of technical progress, the same beautiful Dreams, Honesty and Courage of ones and envy, insatiable greed and treachery of others! The same wonderful start and the same terrible final. And the memory and enthralling legends going on and on right through the centuries and thousands of years!


And what about filming this book by Phylos? We might start the movie just like “Titanic” of James Cameron showing to all spectators an enthralling amazing view of a pyramidal temple of the Atlantis resting at the bottom of the Ocean! (Though surely it is not so easy to find; the ancient temples may lay in ruins even reduced to separate stones covered by sand and clay!)

Indeed as maybe all of you know, there is already such filming of ancient unknown temples taken at the bottom of the Ocean! I have heard about such scientific researches in the Pacific Ocean. There was the Ancient Lemuria or the Land of Mu there, and really there are already films showing some artificial buildings very like pyramidal temples at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean. And surely this is only the beginning!


The Ocean keeps its Secrets! They are NOT to be discovered easily! But they ARE there – truly, surely, indeed!!! They are there – both in the Pacific and the Atlantic Oceans! They are there destroyed, reduced to rubble by wars between their former inhabitants and by natural catastrophes, covered by miles of water and layers of ground, sand, clay.

They are not easy to discover but these are Secrets which can and shall AWAKEN people of the modern earth – awaken from their arrogance, their criminal negligence for Mother Nature, their pitiful hatred, hostilities and the very consciousness of war! And therefore they are worthy to explore, to become known by many!


So I do not bid you farewell and I encourage you to read my next script – Description Pictures Atlantis which though self-sufficient, in this context continues this script, continues my pondering about Atlantis!


Thank you for your friendly attention! Igor Katanugin, Russia.