Guardian Angel. 1. 16. Dzi-dzi!

"A GUARDIAN ANGEL"
a mistical novel
by Alexandra Kryuchkova

PART I. A GUARDIAN

1.16. DZI-DZI!

July 10, Wednesday, evening,
Moscow, the cozy coffeehouse


Alice was sitting in her favorite coffeehouse with a cup of coffee. Svetlana called her.

«How do you feel, Alice? What’s about your mood? Did you get the results of the first surgery?»

«Not yet, the results will be ready the next week. I feel good, but in a strange mood. Lately I’ve been thinking about two things.»

«What about?»

«First, about the words of Nona. Why did she formulate her prediction in that way? She could have said, «I see cancer. If you survive, then you’ll live and live. But Nona said she had seen the surgery. Will I survive it or not? That’s what she had in mind. And she added, «Be careful!»»

«So what does it mean?»

«The threat to my life is not reason of the surgery, but the surgery itself. But how can I, being under the general anesthesia, predict and influence what happens to me on the table?»

«I agree, you can’t.»

«Then what does her words «be careful’ mean?»

«I don’t know.»

«Neither do I, Svetlana. It was obviously about the second surgery. The first one, I was not at all afraid of, but now I have a bad feeling. The second one is in a week. I go to the hospital on the 16th.»

Svetlana’s guardian appeared in the coffeehouse next to Alice. He tried to find White, but the Surgeon’s guardian called out to him, «Hello, Light!»

«Hello, bro. Where is White?»

«In the Dungeon of the 12th House, arrested until July 22.»

«What a turn of events! Why are you here?»

«I promised him to help Alice. White was arrested in front of me when my Surgeon was setting the dates. If I understood him correctly, Alice can’t have surgery on July 17. It must be rescheduled for the 23rd.»

«Why, bro?»

«White shouted to Alice to deal with the Transits, but she didn’t hear him. I’m trying to turn her gaze to them.»

«Alice, you say, you are thinking about two things.»

«At midnight on June 23, under my verse about a chance encounter with the MWWN in London, a review of a woman unknown to me appeared, but her name and surname are the same as of my grandma. A sign, I’m sure of it. I just can’t decipher it. The first thing that came to my mind was that both my grandmas survived cancer, but my mother and aunt did not, perhaps I should focus on my grandmas.»

«Well, that’s a good sign!»

«I agree, but… The Higher Forces could have found as well a woman with the name and surname of my second grandma, so it sounded like «look at me’. Why exactly this grandma?»

«I don’t know, Alice.»

Light addressed the guardian of the Surgeon, «Are you aware of her grandma’s riddle?»

«I am. White arranged a hello from her grandma. He didn’t want Alice to be nervous. But if Alice doesn’t reschedule the surgery for July 23, both the riddle and its meaning will lose their relevance.»

«I see, bro. Tell me how can I help?»

«Suggest calling the Astrologer.»

«What’s about your job?» Svetlana asked.

«I made an agreement with Elabuga. I’ll take a delegation of writers to Tsvetaeva’s Bonfires in October. And a festival is planned in Bulgaria in August. They told me to go there. To the sea. The Black Sea.»

«Wow! You foresaw it saying, „I’ll pass the black tunnel and go to the sea!“ Oh, Alice, how do you see all that, huh?»

«Svetlana, to be honest, I don’t even think about the sea yet. As if there is an iron curtain behind the 17th, with the void beyond it.»

«Where are your planets now?»

«Well, I’ve looked at their transits. There’s no one in the 8th, so it’s quiet, calm. The Sun has finally come out of the Dungeon.»

«You’d better call your Astrologer. You have still 6 days until the 17th, and you never know which planet can suddenly jump into which Sphere.»


***
July 10, Wednesday, night, Moscow, Alice’s kitchen


Alice felt something getting wrong. She lit the candles and turned to the I-Ching, the Chinese Book of Changes, for a consultation, since it always described the current moment in time and had never misled Alice yet. True, sometimes she didn’t want to believe what the Book was saying, but that was not the Book’s problem. Alice flipped 3 coins 6 times and opened the Book in search of the number of the hexagram, remembering that numbers 3, 29, 39 and 47 out of 64 possible were considered the worst. A year before, on the eve of the car accident, Alice had got hexagram number 29, called «Crossing the double abyss». Alice was afraid to get it or one of the other 3 worst again, but she got number 63. Alice breathed a sigh of relief, opened the interpretation page and read the following, «No. 63. DZI-DZI = IT’S ALREADY THE END!»

Alice shuddered and closed her eyes. She didn’t want to believe it, but at the same time she realized that she couldn’t help herself by disbelieving. Alice resolutely opened her eyes and read the full interpretation.

«The process of creating an identity is complete. The hexagram represents the harmonious completion of the process. The results achieved don’t imply the possibility of any further development. Everything has already been achieved. This is what leads to the need for a complete and radical change, to chaos, since chaos will serve as a material from which a new cycle can unfold, starting with creativity… Closer to the exit, one gets more chaos. Not the quantity and quality of the sacrifice, but truthfulness, not external fullness, but inner strength — that’s what can lead one to stability during the chaos of elements, one will inevitably fall into. The achieved once doesn’t matter anything anymore. There’s no point in making a sacrifice. Only what one takes within oneself, rushing towards chaos, only one’s own, individual, can lead one to well-being, the inner core, the ability to be oneself. A wave of chaos overwhelms a person, and only one word is read at the end of the situation, „A HORROR!“»

Alice shut the Book and put it aside. It took her a long time to recover from what she had read, but then she called the Astrologer.

«Alice, hi! How are you?»

«I’m in the black tunnel. I’ve past the first surgery. The second one is in a week.»

«Oh, I didn’t know that! Tell me the date of the second one, I’ll look at the stars!»

«The 17th,» Alice said in a decadent voice, already guessing the Astrologer’s answer.

The pause seemed an eternity.

«Alice, postpone it! It’s nothing good for the 17th!»

«I can’t,» Alice sighed. «The Surgeon goes on vacation on July 25 until September 15. It’ll be too late in September. Even three weeks ago, the Surgeon was scheduled at full. She makes a surgery per day. Only the 17th and the 18th were left free for me. I chose the 17th.»

«It makes no difference, the 17th or the 18th. You shouldn’t have surgery on the 16th, 17th and 18th of July. Ask at least for the 19th, what if it works out?»

Alice went deep in her thought.

«On Fridays, such surgeries are not performed, so the 19th is no way. It remains Monday 22 and Tuesday 23, because on the 24th the Surgeon is no longer working. Okay, I’ll ask… Why not on those dates? There should be no planets in the Death’s Sphere.»

«The basic laws of astrological medicine were recorded by Hippocrates. It’s the Zodiac Sign of the Transit Moon that matters. From July 16th to 18th, the Moon is in Scorpio, and Scorpio symbolizes Death. When the Moon in transit falls into Scorpio, no surgery should be done, especially in the area of the body that Scorpio is in charge of! The risk of death and unforeseen circumstances increases many times more. Moreover, the Moon is in charge of your Life, and Saturn is in charge of your Death. To have surgery during the period of Saturn, when the Moon enters the Death zone, is tantamount to suicide!»

Alice thanked the Astrologer, remained in prostration for a couple of minutes, and then started her own investigation on astrological medicine, trying to find on the Internet any refutation of the Astrologer’s words.

In vain, it was the same everywhere. Moreover, the Moon was growing, and it was recommended to have surgery on the waning Moons. Full Moon would be on July 22nd, the worst day of the month in terms of energy, including fraught with bleeding during surgery. So the 23rd seemed to be the only suitable date, because the Moon would be already waning and far from Scorpio. However, there was almost no chance of rescheduling the surgery.

«Okay,» Alice reflected, «general recommendations are given for all the inhabitants of the Earth. But I have my own pattern of planets both at birth and in the current year. Not only the Moon and Saturn are running around the sky. Accordingly, the Transits of planets must be taken into account individually! Perhaps, I won’t have any problems on the 17th!»

So Alice typed in the search row the magic word «Transits».

«Finally,» exclaimed the guardian of the Surgeon.