The Naked Truth, or PMS, English version... 1

Sexual restraint always goes hand in hand with a certain cowardice and caution, whereas fearlessness and courage are associated with the free satisfaction of sexual needs...
Sigmund Freud


Chastity is the most unnatural of all sexual perversions…
Aldous Huxley


A dress has no meaning unless it arouses in a man the desire to take it off you...
Fran;oise Sagan


Two things are necessary for a man: play and danger. That is why he desires a woman...
Friedrich Nietzsche


THE CRISIS OF THE MODERN WORLD…)) 

Let's begin. Once I was a writer, once I was a musician. Who am I now? Where am I? Why am I here?))

When I was a writer, I attended international conferences. When I was a musician, my songs were played on FM radio and loved by all kinds of sad, sexually frustrated girls, because the songs were written from a female perspective and were about how the female sexual organ cannot tolerate emptiness, and if emptiness is present there, then the girl is sad...)) Of course, it was phrased in other words, veiled and resembled Great Pop Poetry, ah-ha...))
Once I was a widower. Once I was a little boy. Who knows who else I've been?))
Who am I now — that is the question!)) But I'm not sure I'm interested in the answer...

I am married again... I got myself a wife through virtual sex... It was incredibly difficult to start living together, because the once great common country ordered us to live long... Now there is a lot of hassle with obtaining citizenship and other things... In the end, we still managed to make it work!..)) My girlfriend just believed in me, and I temporarily believed in myself because I suddenly found strength after the death of my former wife, who died, basically, because of alcoholism... (Someday I'll tell you more about everything in detail...)

So, here's the deal: I used to be a widower with two kids and a cat; now I'm not a widower, but I have four kids and three cats; recently, we got a really cute pet rat... We work as web models and make money doing amateur porn when our kids are at school...

We don't leave the house; now, no one really leaves the house, why bother? But it works for us... Among other things, against the backdrop of endless household chores and family concerns, it's quite entertaining... Know yourself, and you will know the whole world, the ancients said... Well, perhaps now we are closer than ever to truly understanding who we are...))

We are both 48. We are both Aquarians. I am six days younger than my wife!)) This is our fourth marriage for both of us, and now we definitely have nowhere to go from each other... When we fuck on camera for money, we feel that we are truly loved, and their compliments are sincere...

In her youth, my wife dreamed of becoming an actress and... in essence, she did...)) I still sometimes do some music and composition projects (funny enough, sometimes at the level of the Moscow government (and other seemingly cool but deceptive nonsense), in the city where I was born and raised, unlike my wife)... But... it's all boring...

For most of my life, I thought I was a writer and composer, but it turned out that I just have a really beautiful and attractive penis...)) And we all love compliments and praise...

We all try to develop in the direction that works best for us; that gets, excuse me, the most likes... My penis—especially when it enters my beloved's vagina in close-up—evokes much more emotion in those around me than my music, prose, or poetry...)) However, as with any poetry and music...)) And here it is pointless to argue with the obvious...))

This does not mean, by the way, that I am untalented, that my poetry, my prose, or my music are bad... Not at all, otherwise I would not be paid quite serious money for it at times... It only means that my penis is even better than my music, my poetry, and my prose...

The same can and should certainly be said about my beloved...))
Yes, we all live in a world that is developing in a completely different direction than we were all taught and what we all believed for a long time... Not only us, the “crazy” Aquarians (and, by the way, ah-ha, the masters of the current zodiacal era))), born in 1973, but everyone in general, including our children... School is unnecessary, music is unnecessary, literature is even more so...

From morning till night, getting the kids ready for school or helping my youngest with his homework, all I do is patiently lie that everything that raises serious doubts not only in my 9-year-old son but also in myself has some kind of value, even though at almost 50 I know for sure that it's all nonsense! I'm just afraid for him... I'm just afraid that if he doesn't learn to “play along,” life will fuck him up so badly that he might break, and I love him very, very much... No less than Exupery loved his Little Prince...

My nine-year-old son has 10,000 followers on TikTok... My stepdaughter (she's a couple of years older) has even more... My wife and I collectively have just under 70 million views on the three main porn hosting sites in a little over a year, but we can't tell our kids about it out loud; tell them that we're also something to be reckoned with — especially when we're having sex...))) When we're not having sex, no one is interested in us...))))) That's how it turns out...
No, of course, you can reassure yourself that there are lots of people whose sex life you can't take seriously without crying...)) But... Yes, in short, this vague “but” always remains, and it leaves a slightly bitter taste in your mouth...

Because of this “but,” I probably started writing this new prose...
I haven't written for almost 10 years... And just yesterday, I was sure that I would never do it again...


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