For what?

You seem like mine,
Yet when you’re by my side,
I lose my voice inside.
I want to say what’s in my heart,
But silence tears my words apart.

The words I carry deep in me
Could blind the world so easily,
But when I try to speak to you,
I feel like I will burn right through.

You somehow made me start to see
A fighter and a fire in me,
But even feelings strong and bright
Can fade away one silent night.

I don’t want lies, I want the truth,
Yet silence steals away my youth.
And in my mind, through all the pain,
I scream at myself once again.

“Why do you shout, oh fragile soul?
Not just at him - at us as whole.
We are your nerves, your beating heart,
And now we’re breaking apart.”

So why condemn yourself this way
For things no one can force or sway?
Because true feelings must arise
Inside the hearts of both alike.

Then why keep drowning us in cries,
Turning love to sacrifice?
Perhaps your healing starts again
With distance standing in between.

Or maybe there’s one ending more -
A final closing of the door.
Because beside him you remain
A voiceless shadow wrapped in pain.