After the Quantum Transition. Chapter 4

Перевод на английский Дмитрия Ковалевского с помощью ИИ.

Natalya Rer

28.08.26. A New Life.

Just the day before yesterday, I was in such a hopeless state. I thought that nobody needed anything I had to offer. And then, just yesterday, everything changed. Yesterday was my birthday, I went to the sea, and I had a little conversation with Dima over the internet.

For a long time, I had been looking for someone to whom I could pass on my library. I have been collecting spiritual books since 1992, when they first began to be published. Before that, during Soviet times, they were all forbidden, they simply were not published at all. Even children's books were difficult to buy, and esoteric philosophy was even more strictly prohibited.

Of course, on the one hand, perhaps it was a bad thing that that time came to an end, that perestroika arrived, democracy arrived, and chaos descended upon the country. But on the other hand, we gained freedom of speech, and above all, freedom of spiritual expression, of spiritual and esoteric information.

Well, what can I say, when even the Bible was forbidden here? You couldn't buy anything, absolutely anything. The Church, religion, esotericism — all of it was rejected. And as soon as Yeltsin came to power, these books immediately began to be published on a mass scale.

Back then, many original source texts were being published, and I had my own bookshop. I bought everything I could find for myself, all kinds of books. Russian, Western, and Eastern philosophy, psychology, esoteric philosophy, meditation, yoga, astrology, healing, even martial arts.

I was afraid that they might suddenly ban these books again, and besides, I was interested in everything.

Since childhood, my favorite books had been *I Want to Know Everything* and *Eureka*. In the 1990s, people used to call me a walking encyclopedia.

I had a huge number of books, about two thousand in total, five shelving units. Later, I transported all of them to Sakhalin in a shipping container. There were seventy boxes in it. Then I moved them from Sakhalin here, to Primorye.

In short, I was collecting these books for my future children, for my students.

Well, more than thirty years have passed. God did not give me children, perhaps because I have a spiritual mission. I don't have any students now either, and nobody needs anything.

I was in a depressed state because I had been waiting for 2025 as though it were manna from Heaven.

And Alice Bailey also wrote about 2025. There was the Council of Shambhala, the main one that takes place once every hundred years, and the Teachers of Shambhala were supposed to incarnate. I would have taught them while they were still children, and this library would have been very useful for that.

But I have already written that this accelerated, quantum, mass Transition was cancelled because people turned out not to be ready, and the Teachers were unable to incarnate because they could not find spiritual parents for themselves.

Several women were brought to me, but they were not ready. They did not want one of the Teachers to incarnate in their child.

And, in general, I do not see such people now.

The Teachers stepped aside. They stopped helping humanity, but continued to observe and to help only those working within the Hierarchy of Light, those who engage in spiritual work.

Of course, I was in shock. I did not know how to go on living. I could not see a future. Living here and now, in the Third Dimension, does not interest me. I do not want to live the way everyone else does, and I continued living in the Fifth Dimension.

But when a whole pile of problems arises on the physical plane, you don't want to live there at all, whereas on the spiritual plane, everything is good. In the Fifth Dimension.

My Teacher continued communicating with me, but for the most part, I simply felt his presence and waited.

I waited for my life to change next year.

First of all, the stars are in a difficult configuration until February, with planetary conjunctions and destructive stars, and, in general, this is a very difficult year.

And secondly, according to Vedic astrology, my Main Period of Mercury is supposed to begin at the New Year. It lasts for seventeen years.

I was hoping that my life would change because these periods have a very strong influence, and the sub-periods do as well.

But it turned out that my life had already changed yesterday, after my birthday. According to the Seven Rays, I entered the sub-period of the Fifth Ray of Knowledge.

The current Main Period is also the Fifth Ray of Knowledge, a seven-year period.

And everything began to change.

For now, the problems on the physical plane are not being resolved. But I am gradually putting things in order. I have sorted out the books, and I will start renovating the house now, once the heat subsides, because everything needs to be aired out.

And this feeling of hopelessness that I had been experiencing has suddenly turned into a completely harmonious, happy state.

I think that now, on the physical plane, all my problems will begin to work themselves out. The main thing is that I have enough strength, that I don't get dizzy, that my legs and arms don't hurt, and that I can now begin a new life.

So, now let's return to my library.

I no longer knew whom to leave these books to. I knew that I would live to the age of seventy-two, perhaps a little longer. There isn't much time left anyway, and I have to prepare for leaving the physical plane.

I thought about finding someone at a university, in the philosophy department, to whom I could give these books.

But yesterday Dima made me happy. He said that he needed these books.

I thought, well, thank God, I have found an heir.

Perhaps I will leave him this library together with the old house, because I have no other heirs at the moment.

But at least there is now a purpose in life, an incentive to put the library in order, to fix up the house, to sort through my belongings, throw away all the junk, and so on.

And I am in this state that seems to be connected with my birthday as well, with the transition to another Ray.

It is as though I have moved from one world into another, a parallel world, from the past into the future.

That is, I had expected this change to happen sometime in the spring, or perhaps in winter, but then suddenly, just like that, it happened yesterday, on my birthday.

Such a gift!

Tomorrow I will start renovating the house, little by little, and continue cleaning up and putting things in order.

Well, it is good that at least one person has been found who is interested in this philosophy, in esoteric philosophy.

And I don't even know of any other people who read these esoteric books nowadays. But Dima is currently studying the books of Alice Bailey.

When he was helping me translate my books into English, he would read them a second time as well. He is interested in all of this, and perhaps he will translate something into Japanese.

So now I have begun a new life.